Anyways, for the first class-free Tuesday, I planned a whole list of chores to do and errands to run. I was supposed to wake up at 10am, but I overslept till about noon. I was so so mad at myself and woke up in a bad mood. Funny thing is at one point, I asked myself, "what was the rush anyway? It's not like I have any upcoming tests or assignment deadlines! Besides, it was the first week of the semester!" So I felt better and continued my chores and did my errands.
This incident made me think.. This is sort of a usual feeling for me.. Even if I know I have a holiday, or basically a day off, I am still always planning and trying to complete one task after another, or even worst, even if I got no proper tasks to do, I still have an automatic mode where I need to "not waste time" and get going for lunch so that I can get going for movies so that I can get going for naps so that I can get going for dinner so that I can get going for desserts etc. It's as if I just can't take things slow and basically relax and do nothing. I am always rushing what I am doing, whether it is tasks or leisure activitied, in order to get to another task or the next enjoyable activity. I know this is actually really good for studying or doing assignments (sadly when it comes to that, I tend to slack.. the irony!), but it's kinda tiring and a lil stupid to be rushing leisure time just to get to another activity, no? Not only it makes me impatient and cranky when there are things to inhibit me from doing any activity at a specific time and make myself miserable on a good day off, it makes the people around me feel stressed and the activity becomes less enjoyable. Party - Pooper! :/
So I have been pondering over this small lil weird thing about me, and trying to tell myself to let loose once in awhile and just really, REALLY chill and relax. Oh and I am also trying to tell myself that on days I do not have classes, such as Tuesdays and the weekends, there is nothing wrong in lazing in bed a littleee longer to enjoy the feeling of no classes or things to do. After all, it is already the third week of my semester, and I won't be having much more of these "commitment/deadlines/ - free days" anymore, so I should totally embrace and enjoy these moments where I get to enjoy and chill.
Happy Tuesday, peoples! And cherish all the time you get to enjoy and relax! <3
