I have been away from this little space for quite awhile again. But this time, it is for a good cause. Well, for my own good anyway. Because guess what, I have been busy, very busy, enjoying every moment of my life right now.
It's crazy, how sometimes when you are stuck in a series of unfortunate events (the love for Lemony Snickets subtlety included here, High 5 if you know the books), you tend to feel like you will never ever be able to come out of that place. Or perhaps, you keep wondering when does all of that go away and you can feel even "normal" again.
But the most beautiful thing of bad days? No matter how much time it takes, how many conversations with your best friends, how many emo poems, how many depressed songs, how many sessions of staring into space......................................................................................................................................................
IT WILL PASS.
And that feeling when everything is better, well I guess it is worth all the negative feelings you have to endure to get there.
It feels like after a very bad nose block, and countless days of breathing through your mouth, you suddenly realize your nose is clear again.
It feels like after a power cut off, sitting in the crazy heat, sweating like a pig and being bitten by mosquitoes all over, and the lights and fan come back to life again.
It feels like after continuous sleep deprived nights of rushing an assignment, and the moment you pass it to your lecturer and you know a good sleep is waiting for you.
It feels like going underwater for a whole 3 minutes holding your breath, with a throbbing chest threatening to explode, and you finally come up for air.
And with that, you start to feel alright again.
Sure, there are no completely sunny days. The sun has to set each day anyway. But that's the beauty of it all. Because after the dark, haunting night passes, what comes next is another beautiful sunrise.And it is a new day full of new chances to do it all over again. This is one of the reasons God gave us a limited 24 hours a day I guess? So we can start over, time after time.
And life is always going to be like that. With it highest highs, lowest lows, and everything else in between.
But think about it, how blessed are we, to be able to embark on our own stormy, rocky adventures, and proudly look back at how far we have each come.
If you are in the midst of dark days, I know telling you time will make everything better is not going to help, but I am telling you, it is okay to feel helpless, it is okay to crawl into bed under your covers and wishing you can just sleep your days away.. But loves, hang in there just a lil bit more, you are in the progress of building a warrior inside of you.
If you are in the midst of your good days, stop fearing how things are too perfect, stop worrying what happens when you lose it all.. But rather, enjoy every moment of it, take it all in, and most importantly, acknowledge that this is all you, your own battles fought and won, and you deserve every second of it.
Love always from the bottom of my heart,
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